Heeeeey everybody. Friends. Watchers. Random people who seem to still be visiting my page haha. (srsly. im amazed. everything here is just so bad and old haha)
Anywho, the other day I logged on once again for the first time in MONTHS. This has become a normal thing for me these past couple years. Ever since Jr. year of college it seems I've spent less and less time on here. Despite my extremely long absences though, when I come back....I still feel like I'm a part of this place. I don't feel like I've moved on. DA will always be a home for me no matter how drastically the site changes. It's actually interesting to see how other people I watch who used to be very active 2-3 years ago, not be very active now. This happens to everyone. People come and go to this place, but most certainly come back. When I logged on the other day, I decided to revamp my gallery and pretty much just stuck everything in an "old" folder. Makes me feel a bit better at least. I couldn't really bring myself to delete anything, even though I look back and cringe half the time haha. Half of my submissions have always been what I write in the description, and to delete my past thoughts would be like deleting a journal of my past. I did store a bunch though. Course I spent like 15 min trying to figure out how to do that. I always seem to forget. >__>
I know I say this every time I randomly come back for a few days to converse with people but I do miss drawing for fun. Last year I mainly drew for a portfolio and have finally now applied to a science illust. school I dream of getting into. Right now I'm just crossing my fingers. Tough to say whether I'll make it or not. ^^' If not, my life will just need to go in another direction right now and that OK. I know I'll make it eventually.
I sew a lot these days. Both for my own small business and for cosplay (which i must admit has taken up all my free time). I also fabricate a lot. I make props, have delved into the world of makeup. Basically every aspect of cosplay I've gotten into. Drawing is still a great love of mine and I honestly cant wait until the day I feel it in my heart to start improving my fantasy type art for real again. It's such a struggle being as stretched thin as I am right now. It's like; I can only have motivation to do so much you know? I basically have 3 jobs between my full time land conservation position, hostessing, and my business. And on top of that I'm always feeling pressured to get my projects done for the characters I want to be for certain cons. Most of the time at the end of the day I just don't want to do anything. *shrugs* Well, I guess I've shared my thoughts here enough.
Before I go though, I'd just like to show you guys at least a bit what I've been doing these past 2 years. Honestly never thought I'd ever feel confident enough about my cosplay to share with you all, but hey. It's something in my life I'm happy with and proud of right now so here it is. I won't hide it anymore. Since I've started cosplaying I realized something. I am an artist. In every way, shape, and form. Confidence in myself is something I have gained since I began cosplay, on a number of levels. I have been through a lot to finally feel comfortable in my own skin and I am a stronger person now due to that confidence.
I'm not actually very active on that profile and am way more active on instagram and facebook, but I do remember to update when i get nice photos back. : ) This account, Techlynn, as you all know me by will always be where I am active on a community level on DA. The people I've discovered, met, and became friends with on here, mean so much to me. < 3
Well, good night all. this was a long journal and I apologize but if you made it all the way to the end, I thank you. Love u all.